Emo Moment

I hate to do this, but I have to say something. I'm gonna go emo on your guys. I'm not happy. I haven't been for days, over a week now, maybe more. I don't know why. I feel hopeless, and not in my usual freak out because I don't know what I'm going to do 3 years down the road sort of way. I feel hopeless in a no longer caring sort of way. I feel detached from everyone around me. I don't take joy in anything anymore. I feel alone. I want to matter to someone here. I feel like Whitney has replaced me with Tyler, and that he's an upgrade, even though I know that's irrational. I feel like I'm the only girl on the floor that Blair's not close with. I feel unwanted. So I'm sorry if I haven't been blogging lately, but I haven't been my usual inspired self lately. I haven't had much to say.